Sunday, August 14, 2005
hurt.. quarrel wif sis.. argh.. angry!! hurt!! tears almost flow down.. bt i manage to stop it.. bt..... wen daddy came n started to scold ME.. i juz cant control my tears.. juz like a tap... maybe i'm wrong.. bt i think she too.. is wrong..bt daddy sort of blame me.. n scolded mi.. w/o askin.. w/o knowin wat's happenin.. he scolded me.. at tt moment.. i'm lost.. totalli speechless.. totalli lost.. i oso dunno wat i wanna do.. wat i'm gonna do.. tears juz flow down.. i can do nth.. i'm her daughter too.. bt................ y? it's soooo unfair...
wat if 1 dae.. i leave dis world? will anione miss mi?? argh..............
i need a break.. stress is overcomin me.. i need to rest.. i'm hurtin myself.. i started to hv illision of mani thgs.. no.. i cant let stress overcome me..
i'm not as strong as u guys think... not at all... i feel soo weak tt i'll leave n gv up soon... v soon..
i cant continue wif my wrk.. sth is wrong.. i oso dunno how to describe it.. juz like.. so mani thgs happened to me out of a sudden.. i realli hv no idea wat i wanna do.. seems like someone is conquerin me.. orderin mi to do sth else.. i cantt concentrate on everithg.. includin my project... i haven realli finish my site analysis.. wat e'.. it shld be finished by last week.. n now.. i'm still here.. concept.. new concept is out.. bt none of my layout is out yet..
gastric.. well nth new.. as usual... is there anione out there care for me? NOPE!! not at all....
~fernny~ a world wif no love.. no care...
caught a falling star @ 11:25 PM